your-beautiful-goodbye

2010-02-16T22:42:00.003+08:00

Sorry for being away. Read my tumblr for more updates.

I wanna delete this blog. But I don't feel like it. Full of memories. :)

again.

2010-02-11T20:35:00.001+08:00

A Promise In The Dark.

Prove nothing, nothing at all when things fell apart.

you're still the one .

2010-02-11T15:09:00.007+08:00

2 years ago. =.=

I'll do a proper update today, since I'm free.

I skipped training like again. I have no idea why I'm being such a bitch. My mood is not switching to anything else except rotting at home. All I wanted is to go home and sleep. And yes. I was being ditched alone while the girls enjoyed themselves with the soccer boys. That's the reason why I left without even letting them know. 3 periods of Food & Nutrition is a total disaster. Coursework is a killer. I used to love F&N. But hey, not anymore. I, literally dragged myself to F&N lessons every 2 times a week. I got no idea what's happening in English lesson today. I slept throughout the lesson for 2 periods. Don't ask me why. Eunice was asleep too. Ya, I know that language is important. In fact, very important. But oh my. You'll murder yourself if you have an idea of what is the teacher teaching, seriously.

Quin Weng showed me the gift he made for Alycia. And he told me what he planned to do. Honestly, I was really moved and touched. I shall say Alycia is one lucky girl. Really lucky. She owned someone who pampered and shower her with love. Someone who never fail to show, how much he really love her. So sweet. Every one knows that Quin Weng is such a sweetheart when it comes to "Love" Haha, right?

I bumped into Khai yesterday. I didn't get a chance to talk to him but he did text me later at night. Well, it's been long since I last talk to him. Did a little catch up yesterday and we're done. There's Chinese new year celebration in school tomorrow. But it will be a bit different this year. Will talk about it tomorrow. Nadya have been telling me this. " I don't want history to repeat itself. I really feel that it's gonna repeat again. They are all bastards. " Oh c'mmon my dear girl. We all know how much he mean to you. He used to be your past, your love and your everything. Certain guys might be a pain in the ass. But there are still a hand full that is willing to always be yours. What happened to me is not gonna happen to you cause I believe different guys/boys/mens have different ways of cheating you. Be it he's a man or a guy or even a boy. They are all the same sweety. You just have to be strong and stand on your two feet's.

You can tell your lies. I don't really care about what you really feel deep down inside. One day you'll realise that you had a good girl in your life. I shall stop here. This post is getting more and more draggy. I promised that there will be pictures for tomorrow's post. I shall take a nap now. Really tired.

2010-02-10T20:52:00.002+08:00

My blog is dry. I'm lacking of pictures. I'm just plain lazy to upload. School was awesome. I'm blessed with a lovely class. Headed down to Eunice's crib after lunch. Had a great laugh with her watching all the videos. Cute guys, doing stupid things. Nadya arrived few hours later. Did our usual stuffs and off for dinner. I did bonding session with Nadya today. After so long. I bet she understands what I feel. I got no choice but to let it out to someone. She was shocked upon hearing what happened. Oh well. I got no say. Guys now days, are just pieces of trash. You don't gain anything by doing this neither do I. So after all I guess, friends are every thing. They are always there for you to brighten up your life. And hey, I'm perfectly fine. I'm not ego but it's just the fact. People like this don't deserve the best from me. Siti's birthday in 3 days time. I got nothing in mind, yet. And, I'm taken on Valentine's Day. Start wondering who alright, baby girls. Nyehahahahhahahahahahahahahaha. :P AdelineB, text me your number ! Thank you, ily.

" Pain is temporary. Pride is forever. "

2010-02-09T20:35:00.003+08:00

I'm a nasty bitch.

You never wanna play games with me.

Cause I can play it better than you do. I gonna leave things hanging.

Trust me, Try me baby.

2010-02-08T21:25:00.007+08:00

Welcome to the family, Nurul Abby Fardyanna Binte Muhd Ridzwan.

She's my gorgeous and healthy niece. Look at how fat and round is she. She's only 4 days old. My 2nd brother is really blessed, with this baby girl of his. You have no idea how deep are her dimples. Damn adorable. Arghh, I just feel like squashing her in my arms. Haha. Will be paying her a visit this Sunday. I can't wait. Mum is slowly showing positive signs. I'm really glad. In fact, everyone is glad to see that.

We know you too well, mum. (:

2010-02-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

How many times I gave my heart to how many times everything fall apart.

If only you have an idea how much I want this to work out.

Out of sudden, I start to think of you. I miss your heartbeat in me.

How I wish I could turn back time, let you breathe and be in my arms for

the rest of your life. If only I were given the chance to keep you.

You'll always be a part of me.

2010-02-06T11:28:00.002+08:00

Selfish. Egoist. Irrational. Heartless.

It's all in you. I'm just the girl next door whom you take for granted.

I'll be meeting the usual girls today. It's been long. We shall get bitchy today.

Errrr, I can't be bother anymore. You can be this way, for as long as you want.

By all means, my pleasure. ((((: Bye .

2010-02-05T21:10:00.001+08:00

I found this ugly photo of us. Now you have an idea of how horrible we look like. Oh my god, I look damn hideous. My oh my. I'm sick and tired of the same old routine. What is wrong with humans now days? They will tend to push you away when you're trying so hard to put yourself in their shoes. This is the reason why I used to choose my own way of life instead of prioritising others feelings ahead of me. Being selfish is totally not a need. I gonna put everything aside and get over with my O's. I don't wanna be affected by all these little issues. I guess, leaving Singapore will be a very good idea as that's where A Whole New Chapter Begins.

Girls, Romp5 15 March 2010 at Zirca and Rebel.

2010-02-03T19:56:00.006+08:00

Let's start of with school. It's awesome today. We girls dragged Quin Weng to the girls toilet before afternoon assembly today. He was begging us to let him go as he need to pee badly. It was kinda hilarious. I just can't stop laughing. Thanks lovelies for making me smile. Eunice come up with a stupid plan after our recess today. This is how our conversation goes.

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Eunice: Lets be late for geography class. We can sit outside the class and talk for 2 periods.

Aisha: Yaaaa, let's walk slowly.

Me: Let's go to the toilet then. But what if she asked why are we late?
Eunice: Tell her I'm not feeling well, vomited and you girls accompany me.

Aisha: Say to her that we didn't hear the bell.

Me: If we have good excuses, she will not ask us to sit outside you know.

Eunice: Then let's say we're in the toilet and didn't hear the bell.

Me & Aisha: Yaaa, okay sure.

Look at how mischievous are we. We're just sick and tired of school. Visited cousin later in the late afternoon. And Congrats to dearest brother for his new born baby girl. I just hope you'll open up your heart and make your way back home with a total change in you. I really expect something way much better since you're a dad now. As for you to know, I love you. Now, I have no idea what is she up to. She's really getting on my nerves. I have no idea what's in her mind. What is she trying to impressed exactly? I just feel that she's trying hard. Way too hard I guess. She sounds so desperate. I'm trying to be nice and ignore. I thought she's matured enough to realise and think that what she's doing now have already crossed the line.

But well, it seems like she's not aware of it.

Ignorance Is Bliss.

2010-01-28T20:45:00.004+08:00

My head is spinning like, god knows how. My migraine is seriously a killer. I've thrown away my medicine. I hate to look at them. What more, consume them. I rather die. There's cross country tomorrow. 3.4KM at Macritchie. It's a compulsory event for the whole school. I was about to take MC tomorrow when Siti actually gets angry. Looks like I have to go. We have to gather at Macritchie as early as 7.25am. I might not be blogging for a few days. Will be at Aunt's place during the weekends to help out for cousin's engagement and nephew's ceremony. I'll be away at Jurong and Teban. So far, omg. I have to be apart from Mum. :(((( And I can't put myself to sleep now. I really want to sleep badly. But this head of mine is being sucha bitch. Relationship is another issue. Everything is in a mess. No commitment. No talks. No communications. Nothing at all. What on earth are we both up to? I have no idea at all. Goodnight.

Those times when a person simply asked, " How's your day?" Oh well, that really makes my day.

2010-01-28T14:45:00.004+08:00

This is one of the picture I found in my thumb drive while doing coursework. This was taken last year, during my Food And Nutrition Practical. Look at that gorgeous green rice. Have you ever wonder how it turned green? I did not use any artificial colouring okay. You have no idea how I struggle to make it look green. And now, I'm in school for extra lessons. Doing my F&N coursework. EuniceB is beside me. She's so engrossed in the lappy. With her green earpiece plug in her ears, Fingers moving typing down information's and her " Ehhh, what the fuck " face. Ok, she's gonna kill me if she sees this. But, hey baby girl. You know how much I love to irritate you right? Especially showing you off my papaya fruit right in front of your face ! hahaha. I seriously hate the school connection. The laptop just have to give me problems. I'm trying to do my research on obesity. Sounds easy, but hell no. It's a whole of hard work man. I'm having training at 330pm. I doubt I'll be going. I'm really damn shag these few days. You people can start calling me Nysa Panda. If you think you ain't wanna give any commitment, then don't fall in love with me. As simple as that. I didn't make it sound so complicated, didn't I?

2010-01-27T22:01:00.002+08:00

I will keep myself busy from today onwards.

And when I said busy means, really busy. I will get tight with everything around me.

Be it with school or whatever shit. I just not gonna sit down and wait for anything.

I will not reply to unnecessary messages and calls. Phone will be put aside during

school hours. Too bad if you people won't be able to reach me.

Goodnight.

2010-01-27T20:08:00.002+08:00

I found these 2 old pictures when we were at Chennai, India. They were all taken in the year 2008. . Just look at how slim I were 2 years back. Even though I don't look that slim, but hey I really look different now. This shows that I've really gained alot of weight. Well, what do you expect. People change. As years past, everything just couldn't remain the same. Even the small little things have to change. Likewise, same goes for my feelings towards the past. Well, after doing quite a number of reflections, I really think that nothing were worth my time. As for now, I'm taking the risk and every chances that comes by. There's way too much things to be done. I really need to pursue my dreams. That's the only way that would make me feel satisfied. Where am I gonna be 5 years down the road? I shall say, all that really lies within myself. The determination and perseverance towards life challenges is never easy. Take the right path and you'll be on the right track. Every stepping stone brings you closer to success.

2010-01-26T21:41:00.003+08:00

I look like a " good girl ", don't I? :)
She just make me smile, everyday with her silly acts.
The Aisha and Aisyah.
Pictures taken in school today. UGLY + MESSY = graduating classes.
Mission accomplished. I've done a mind map for Geography test tomorrow. So, I shall read it through before I go to sleep. Eunice told me this just now. " Tomorrow's test better write bigger uh. " You should know what she mean. As usual huh babe? hahaha, cute pancake of mine. *inside joke* Training was such a killer. I am sure that I gonna step down right after tournament. I can't take it anymore, dragging myself to school everyday due to lack of rest. My eye bags are extremely ugly. I'm getting darker and darker each day. When we girls took off our jerseys in the toilet after training today, we all go, " OMG, look at the mark on my body ! " You have no idea how fair am I last time compared to now. I need some whitening cream now. Oh ya. We then start to compare our breast with Siti's. HAHAHA, hers is damn huge. Eunice and I was like, wow this is nice when a guy @#$%^& you. Siti was like, What the hell girls? HAHAHAHA. Ok, this sounds so obscene. Whatever it is, I love her breast. Attractive. HAHAHA.

I love my girls.

2010-01-25T20:28:00.002+08:00

Look to this day.

" Yesterday is already a dream and tomorrow is only a vision,

but today, well lived, makes yesterday a dream of happiness and every

tomorrow a vision of hope. It takes both party for things to work out.

If you don't wish to work hard for it, then don't fall in love. "

2010-01-23T15:18:00.002+08:00

Can someone sing this to me? LOL.

I'm really impressed by his talent. Multi-talented guy.I just can't stop listening to I'm Yours. Awesome.

2010-01-22T22:36:00.005+08:00

Never take chances cause you might feel the pain, again.

That's what I'm feeling right now. I swear, it feels like someone just tattooed across my heart. I have no idea what's exactly running through my mind. Everything is all jumbled up. I, seriously, hate this feeling. Do you know how it feels when everything seems so wrong and when you felt that there's something that you should know but you're just being kept in the dark? I'm trying not to be moved by all these. But apparently, I can't. This really sucks big time. I'm not directing this to anyone. But this is just what I feel deep down. And blogger is where I pend down my thoughts since it's hard for others to actually feel the pinch

when I really speak up to them. Goodnight.

"Don't let someone become a priority in your life when you're just an option in theirs."

2010-01-20T20:12:00.003+08:00

Everything just seems so wrong today. I have no idea what

on earth is going on today. Every little things just have to irritate the hell out of me.

And it just feels so different when you have to put my with some one's ego, again

after not being hooked up/ tide down for quite some time.

Parts and parcel of life. Life's is all about how you handle it and how the mindset works.

Be optimist and everything is gonna turn out fine, hopefully. Life is unfair.

I hate it when I have to give in everytime to everyone. And I hate monkeys.

So please dearest girl, be the best monkey cause I seriously hate you.

Goodnight.

2010-01-16T22:08:00.004+08:00

It was NadyaB idea.
Beloved Aunty.
My BFF.

Dramatic enough?

We didn't plan aboUT wearing the same brand which we bought it together.

Sweet right? We even wore the same colour of jeans. LOL.

This is hers okay.

See, I told you it's hers.

Pictures of today. DONE. Will be meeting si badot tomorrow.

Merayap jer nysa. Ok, bye. Goodnight.

2010-01-15T18:46:00.003+08:00

St.Margret's. Bendemeer. Serangoon Garden. Pierce.

These are the schools that we'll be competing with next week. Most probably it will be held at CCAB, as usual. So, wish the Guangyang girls good luck alright. Hopefully, we'll make it to the 2nd round this time. Looks like we gonna use the same pink jersey again. How's school? As per normal. I just love my class, 5N1. I love the spirit and the same usual cliques. But for sure, I miss the ones who didn't make it through with us. Mdm Haniza talked to me about my Malay grade. She really wants me to retake it for the 3rd time badly. She said that I'm a potential Distinction scorer, and why must I waste it when I can make use of this language to go to Poly? Well, I've reconsidered about what she said. And I've talked to mum about it. Seems like I gonna take it again, this year. Let's hope this time I'll be able to get over and done with it.

4 more months. Intensive coaching !

2010-01-14T11:09:00.002+08:00

I HATE YOU SO MUCH.

A merciless person like you should just be hang to death.

I have no idea why are you being so immoral.

A hypocrite person who thinks highly of himself.

Whereas on the other hand, he have no idea that his actions now

is really insulting himself. Not others. It's damn hideous.

Bye.

2010-01-13T20:58:00.006+08:00

this is when I don't homework, and copy Eunice's
Recess mad-ness.
Nyehahahahahah, pictures are so lame man. Really. Look at how selekeh I am in school. Rambot kusut masai. OMG. Never mind, there's no hot guys in Guangyang also. So, it's okay. I was damn tired the whole day today. I dragged myself to school. Due to yesterday training, everything just seems so weak for me. And there's training tomorrow. Omg. Arghhhhh. Damn shitty, I swear. Now, I'm on the phone with Shah. I miss him gitu kan. After so long, he called again. Since we both have been busy with our own stuffs, so we're doing a lil catching up now. Shall head to bed soon. I have not touch any of my homework. AS USUALLLL. hahahahahahah. Goodnight.

2010-01-12T20:44:00.003+08:00

Just got back from training. Oh my god. SitiB, EuniceB and me are selected for the main 12 again this year South Zone. I've been planning not to play this year since we've been playing competative games/tournaments for the past 4 years. But we really pity Coach. So we have no choice but to just agreed on it. This is the last year, endure. My plans of not attending training anymore is all ruined. It seems like I have to attend it regularly from now onwards. Tournaments are next week. I hope my ankle will be nice with me this time. Hopefully. I've received my Food & Nutrition coursework. Early isn't it? Actually not really. The topic looks easy but you'll see me scratching my head, crying and even screaming when I have to sit in front of the laptop in school and finish up the coursework. Damn shitty. The worst part, our class is combined with the 4 express. And I swear I can't tolerate them. Rude, Childish, Attitude problem, Lazy and everything. Irritating bunch of idiotic morons. Enough of school. I might be heading to KL during Chinese New year. Hopefully it's gonna be confirm soon. Oh, I wanna take up BioMedical Science course in Poly. But then, the cut off points is 11 !?!?! Arghh, Nights.

2010-01-08T19:41:00.008+08:00

Don't get messed up when you see me with another man.
I ain't no fool for you, no more. :)))))))))

Omg, gos knows how much I miss the gathering we used to have. The gym session and all.

Let me do a proper update here alright. So apparently, I went shopping with NadyaB yesterday. Before that, we met AyinB and EkahB. Sat and talked. Oh well, it's the usual ladies stuff. Went our seperate ways and that's where the shopping starts. I was totally shag yesterday. I was dragging myself home. I swear I'll go broke if i were to shop with NadyaB again. She the worst shopper I've ever met. DO NOT SHOP WITH HER. Cause she'll make you spend your money. But still, I had a great time yesterday. Besides the tragic news, I was fine the whole day.

Today, I dragged my feet to school as I was all drained out last night. Had a tiff with chemistry teacher. She scolded me and Eunice when we were actually whispering, ONLY. This is how the conversation goes. Read carefully. This teacher is a big time bitch. All time, I swear.

Teacher : You are very annoying. Can't you both stop talking?! *SCREAMING LOUD*

Eunice: We were just whispering. And I only said a word, and you're screaming?

Teacher: DO you know that you're buzzing right at my ear? *screaming again*

Me: Ehhhh, you enough or not uh !? *shouts*

Teacher: You, enough ! I've been tolerating you *pointing fingers*

Me: I've been tolerating you too okay. * shouted*

Teacher: Ya, and I've been tolerating you for the past years.

Me: If you think you don't wanna hera any noises, than go to some ratarded

school where all the mute people are there.

Teacher: *shocked face and wanted to say something*

Me: Just shut up okay. SHUT UP.

Teacher: Don't come and find me anymore.

Me: I won't and I'm not gonna die. I don't need you.

Teacher: Good. I have a 1 less pupil to teach.

Me: Yeahhhh, and I love it.

When lesson ends...............................................................

Me: Yessss uh. She's finally leaving. *saying out loud*

Eunice: *LAUGHS*

How annoying can she get, right? Full time sucker. Silap hari, aku kena hantar pergi jumpa DM. Just wait and see. I will just have to quarrel with her, from Sec 3 till now. Idiotic. Went for lunch with the girls. (Siti, Tey, Eunice & Nadya). It was Nadya and my treat to them. So, yeah. giggled and stuffs. Headed down to EuniceB crib after that. Like nothing better, we bitch. Oh, and I got myself g-strings. LOL. Sounds obscene. But, I do not care. It's super sexy. But too bad. It's just for me to see. Cuttttttttttte sangat-sangat. It's Saturday tomorrow. I have plans of course. My blog is really dry. I need pictures soon.

ADELINE OSMAN, we miss you so much.

ILYILYILYILYILYILYILYILY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ :D

Pictures UP !

2010-01-01T20:45:00.009+08:00

ayin scolded me. :(

Happy New Year World.

These are yesterday countdown pictures. I'm too lazy to upload everything.

Downtown to Clarke Quay and ended up in Maya at 11pm. It was terribly awesome. A brand new year and a brand new start. I was all drained out after countdown and home sweet home at the end of the day.

2009-12-30T00:10:00.002+08:00

It's 12:05am now. A shout out to this man.

Happy 21st Birthday Nur Danial Lukman.

Firstly, this guy made me called him 12 midnight on the dot to sing him a birthday song in 3 different languages. That was his wish. So I granted it. See how nice I am eventhough my heart was pounding real fast. =.=. Anyways, May all your wishes come true dude. Be strong in facing all the realities. I believe one fine day, you'll find the right one. Few more months to ORD huh. So, wishing you all the best in life. I hope you'll be able to fly to Australia by 2011 for your degree, like how you've planned. So, enjoy your birthday celebration Mr Parliament. Why I called him Mr Parliament? Oh well, he debates real good I tell you. The way he speaks and the way he present himself just by a piece of speech, really make you moved. Once again, Happy Birthday. May Allah bless you, Amin. Goodnight.

XOXO, nysa.

2009-12-29T22:50:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated specially for Que (left).

Girl, this is what your girls felt. I know you'll be reading this.

Baby girl, you knew how much you mean to us. Why are you making things complicated and difficult for everyone? When you said we don't understand what you've been through, it really offends me alot. All these while, we have been encouraging you. Whenever you skipped school, who will be the one that goes, "Bitch you better come tomorrow or I'll hang a pig's head at your door. Understand me?!" If it wasn't us who nagged at you, do you think you'll have the courage to even be where you are now? I'm not trying to prolong this matter. But as for you to know, we are all very disappointed in you. You're a bright girl. You have been advising me to study hard. You told me you have an ambition. But then, why are you not giving your best? Why girl? Why are you making me teared? It hurts alot, to see you in this situation. Do you know that? Do you know how worried was Nadya when you don't even want to get back to her after sending you countless messages and giving you lotsa calls? Why are you reacting this way?

Every move you made, brings you closer to success. What is it that's stopping you from achieving it? Money? Families? Boyfriend? Love life? All these are bullshits. Nothing in this world can stop an individual from fulfilling their dreams. NOTHING babe. I've told you up teen times, never mess up your personal problems with studies, didn't I? Do you think by not replying our text messages and rejecting our calls gonna help you out of this mess? It might be easy for you to say, "Don't worry. I'll get a school. I will study." But do you think it's convincing enough for your girls with your current attitude now? C'mmon my precious girl. You're old enough. Please think. This is for your future sake. I really hope you'll think through it. You have a bright light shining towards you now. Choose the right path. I really wanna see my girl to be somebody one day. Put aside all your problems and achieve your goals. Handle thing maturely, please. Face the reality. Aceept all the facts. You'll always be our precious and one and only ducky. Remember that.

We love you, Siti Quraishah and forever we'll do.

2009-12-28T13:43:00.002+08:00

One Two Three.
I miss those moments man. When we used to hang out and chill after work. When we waited for each other to end our work and stuffs. Now, its left with Nadya who is still working. Semangat. Orang semua dah semangat nak start sekolah, she masih semangat carik duit. HAHAHA. I guess I'll be at home today. I'm too lazy to step out. I've been acting like a pig these days. Eat and sleep. My dad always said this. " Adik, can you stop being lazy, please. Favour uh. " Ok drop this topic. My beloved cousin is getting engage at the end of January. There's lotsa preparation. I was shocked when I heard the dowry money the guy offered. Macam nak terberak. Punya lah banyak. Ok, I'm done for now. I'll be back later if I'm bored.

Bye bitches and sluts.

2009-12-27T03:02:00.001+08:00

It's 3.00AM now. And I still can't sleep. Stupid.

I feel like poking these eyes of mine. Kill me anyone? I really miss Ashriq real bad. Maybe that's the reason why I'm not able to sleep. I just miss his heartbeat in me. It's really damn hard to get over it. Really. I have no idea how others did it. And I have no idea how T forget about him and get rid of him out of his life. In the other hand, I'm struggling like crap here. If I were to pour it out to someone, they won't understand at all. Cause it's me who is going through it. Baby baby baby baby baby baby baby, I miss you honey. How I wish you're still breathing now. Alalalalala, dah lah. I gonna get hanky with my eldest brother and his friends since I can't sleep. Instead of dwelling over this matter, I shall meet up abang at ______. K bye.

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2009-12-26T23:20:00.002+08:00

This is Khai. Picture was taken yesterday at Jonathan's open house. I'll upload the rest when Jonathan decides to send it to me alright. I had a whole chunk of fun yesterday. I spend quality time with my collegues. We laughed at every single thing. Especially at Jonathan's nephew, Marcus. Adorable boy. Apparently today, I accompanied mum to her friend Chrismas open house. I had fun, of course. Mum friends are all the kaki gereks. Not the makcik-makcik kepo punya. Hell of time bitching. Off and met Atai. Catched up some of the things I've missed out. I headed home after I've met Zaki. I kinda miss my girls. Nadya, Eunice, Ashley, Que, Siti, Adeline, Ayin, Ekah and so on. I miss work. The times when I bitched around with Kelvin about all the typical staffs. Oh my, I miss those moments. Now, I felt the boredom. Weird huh.

And you. Please have the balls to leave your name cause I believe your name have a great meaning behind it. So don't be ashamed to type it out alright? It's kinda hounourable y'know to have you reading my blog. My die hard fan uh you? HAHAHA, inside joke. Goodnight.

2009-12-26T15:15:00.001+08:00

This is about you, T.

Why would someone actually put all the blame on one individual when it actually takes two hands to clap? There's something in us that binds us together but why do you have to let others misinterpret everything? In a such that they think I'm a bitch who just make used of you for the past year. You started it with a perfect kiss. But as for now, You've left me for good, am I right? I know that you'll find another. So, i suggest that you move on cause I've detest you to step into my life again. I want you to know, that it doesn't matter to me anymore. Everything means nothing to me anymore. Including YOU. Never come crawling back and seek for my forgiveness. Cause I'm not gonna stop, look and pick you up again. Once bitten, twice shy. Just remember one thing, I might not be blessed with a porn star body shape and a diva queen pretty face, but I'm blessed with a heart which constantly worries for you and provides unconditional love. I used to love you not for what you are but I love you for you, even your weaknesses. Sadly, you don't even appreciate that. I guess that's the end of the chapter. I've move on and my feelings towards you have vanished. Lastly, I totally disagree on guys having to blame women for their naivety in believing words of fable and lies.

2009-12-25T01:49:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas Lovelies.

May it be a joyful season for all of you. Enjoy your holidays.

I'll upload the pictures during my last day of work, when I'm not lazy.

I'm really feeling damn shagged now. Goodnight.

RESULTS.

2009-12-18T18:30:00.005+08:00

ATTENTION ATTENTION.

Arghhh, I love her hair. My plan of highlighting my hair is destroyed now. BECAUSE.

I passed my N-levels and I'm promoted. Let me say it one more time. I, NUR ANNISA IS BEING PROMOTED TO SEC 5N. Omg. It was so unbelievable. With the new horrible/diffcult/torturing criteria, I actually made it through !The most shocking part was, I passed my maths for the first time in my life. I passed every single subject man. This is miracle. I thought I didn't make it through. But, I did it. My heart almost popped out when I saw my result slip. I even screamed when they said, I'm promoted. Congrats to all my baby girls too. Cause all of them make it through. Love ya girls.

I was given the Higher Nitec form too. But I've look through it and none of the courses attracts me. The course that I want is all in poly. Since my parents really want me with an O's cert, I'll do them proud and make my way to Sec 5. I've decided. So EuniceB, I'll be with you again, next year. Now, I gonna quit my job as soon as ChrisTmas is over. Than I gonna start my school preparations. One more year to go in Guangyang. Endure and Perseverance. I hope I'll be able to make my through for O's. Wish me luck for 2010.

To all my people : Ayin, Siti, Fit, Lynn. It's not the end of the world. Work hard please. Don't let your results damage your whole lifetime. Look in the bright side. I believe you girls have a bright future. Put extra effort for all your upcoming challenges. Face it and strive for it. All the best for the future. You have my support. Ekah, make your choices wisely. You're smart.

To all my girls that's going seperate ways : Nadya, Que, Hanis, Yenny, Xue Yan, Ashley. Please please do keep in touch. It's not the end yet. I believe that this is not the end of our journey together. Especially my netball girls. I miss those time on court. So, you girls do drop by and pay me, Eunice and Siti a visit when you're free. Please don't abandoned us. You girls will always be in my heart and prayers. Please, keep the friendship going on strong. I love you girls.

And now, I gotta start some discussion with my parents. =.=

My mum is so overjoyed. She the most happiest women.

Excited than me? Crazy. But I love her. Ok, bye.

2009-12-18T10:31:00.004+08:00

Our new born cheeky baby girl. Melyasarra Binti Yusri.

Went over to Auntie Maz's crib. I was so shocked. She grew alot. It's only a week and she have grown so much. Still dalam hari I think. Still got the pantang and all. Sarra is damn cute. She purposely cloed her eyes when everybody was looking at her. And she open up only when there's no one. Adorable kan? I was the one carrying her all along. The feeling is damn great to carry a new born baby. And guess what? I teared the moment i hold her in my hands. She reminds me alot about Ashriq. And it also rmeinds me how humans cruelty can cause damange to others. I really treasure this little niece of mine. I love you, Sarra.

4 more hours to go. I'll be back updating about my results. Stay tune people. :D

Te' amo.

2009-12-14T23:46:00.004+08:00

Ala, round kan my face eversinc eI've cutted my hair? Haha. But I love the way I am. If you don't, then just simply shut the fuck up and take a step back, bodoh. I hate to see couples make out in public. I don't mind if it's just higguing. But not to an extend where you ahve to kissed and wiggle your tongue through each other mouth. Especially in buses and trains. It's so sickening to see them slobber over each other. Instead of making out in the public areas, I rather you people book yourself a hotel and enjoy the sensation there. Dumb assholes. Oh. Never take advantage of others willingness just to accommodate yourself alright. I shall share one important fact with you people. Do you people agree that when a guy doesn't get his own way, his pride is so wounded that he retreats into a shell of monosyllabic moroseness and won't retreat until he feels it's been made up to him? It's just as simple as, he'll sulk if things doesn't get his way. It just brings you nowhere with this kind of attitude. Be a man and fight for your rights. You should really know.

Results will be out on Friday. I can see the preasure in everyone's expression whenever we talked about results. I bumped into someone. And he's really getting on my nerves. I have no idea what is he up to. Well, behind those radiant smiles lies a sweet secret that binds us together. But, eventually it's just something called the past. Over and done with you. Goodnight.