My head is spinning like, god knows how. My migraine is seriously a killer. I've thrown away my medicine. I hate to look at them. What more, consume them. I rather die. There's cross country tomorrow. 3.4KM at Macritchie. It's a compulsory event for the whole school. I was about to take MC tomorrow when Siti actually gets angry. Looks like I have to go. We have to gather at Macritchie as early as 7.25am. I might not be blogging for a few days. Will be at Aunt's place during the weekends to help out for cousin's engagement and nephew's ceremony. I'll be away at Jurong and Teban. So far, omg. I have to be apart from Mum. :(((( And I can't put myself to sleep now. I really want to sleep badly. But this head of mine is being sucha bitch. Relationship is another issue. Everything is in a mess. No commitment. No talks. No communications. Nothing at all. What on earth are we both up to? I have no idea at all. Goodnight.

This is one of the picture I found in my thumb drive while doing coursework. This was taken last year, during my Food And Nutrition Practical. Look at that gorgeous green rice. Have you ever wonder how it turned green? I did not use any artificial colouring okay. You have no idea how I struggle to make it look green. And now, I'm in school for extra lessons. Doing my F&N coursework. EuniceB is beside me. She's so engrossed in the lappy. With her green earpiece plug in her ears, Fingers moving typing down information's and her " Ehhh, what the fuck " face. Ok, she's gonna kill me if she sees this. But, hey baby girl. You know how much I love to irritate you right? Especially showing you off my papaya fruit right in front of your face ! hahaha. I seriously hate the school connection. The laptop just have to give me problems. I'm trying to do my research on obesity. Sounds easy, but hell no. It's a whole of hard work man. I'm having training at 330pm. I doubt I'll be going. I'm really damn shag these few days. You people can start calling me Nysa Panda. If you think you ain't wanna give any commitment, then don't fall in love with me. As simple as that. I didn't make it sound so complicated, didn't I?

I will keep myself busy from today onwards.

And when I said busy means, really busy. I will get tight with everything around me.

Be it with school or whatever shit. I just not gonna sit down and wait for anything.

I will not reply to unnecessary messages and calls. Phone will be put aside during

school hours. Too bad if you people won't be able to reach me.

Goodnight.

I found these 2 old pictures when we were at Chennai, India. They were all taken in the year 2008. . Just look at how slim I were 2 years back. Even though I don't look that slim, but hey I really look different now. This shows that I've really gained alot of weight. Well, what do you expect. People change. As years past, everything just couldn't remain the same. Even the small little things have to change. Likewise, same goes for my feelings towards the past. Well, after doing quite a number of reflections, I really think that nothing were worth my time. As for now, I'm taking the risk and every chances that comes by. There's way too much things to be done. I really need to pursue my dreams. That's the only way that would make me feel satisfied. Where am I gonna be 5 years down the road? I shall say, all that really lies within myself. The determination and perseverance towards life challenges is never easy. Take the right path and you'll be on the right track. Every stepping stone brings you closer to success.

I look like a " good girl ", don't I? :)
She just make me smile, everyday with her silly acts.
The Aisha and Aisyah.
Pictures taken in school today. UGLY + MESSY = graduating classes.
Mission accomplished. I've done a mind map for Geography test tomorrow. So, I shall read it through before I go to sleep. Eunice told me this just now. " Tomorrow's test better write bigger uh. " You should know what she mean. As usual huh babe? hahaha, cute pancake of mine. *inside joke* Training was such a killer. I am sure that I gonna step down right after tournament. I can't take it anymore, dragging myself to school everyday due to lack of rest. My eye bags are extremely ugly. I'm getting darker and darker each day. When we girls took off our jerseys in the toilet after training today, we all go, " OMG, look at the mark on my body ! " You have no idea how fair am I last time compared to now. I need some whitening cream now. Oh ya. We then start to compare our breast with Siti's. HAHAHA, hers is damn huge. Eunice and I was like, wow this is nice when a guy @#$%^& you. Siti was like, What the hell girls? HAHAHAHA. Ok, this sounds so obscene. Whatever it is, I love her breast. Attractive. HAHAHA.

Look to this day.

" Yesterday is already a dream and tomorrow is only a vision,

but today, well lived, makes yesterday a dream of happiness and every

tomorrow a vision of hope. It takes both party for things to work out.

If you don't wish to work hard for it, then don't fall in love. "

Never take chances cause you might feel the pain, again.

That's what I'm feeling right now. I swear, it feels like someone just tattooed across my heart. I have no idea what's exactly running through my mind. Everything is all jumbled up. I, seriously, hate this feeling. Do you know how it feels when everything seems so wrong and when you felt that there's something that you should know but you're just being kept in the dark? I'm trying not to be moved by all these. But apparently, I can't. This really sucks big time. I'm not directing this to anyone. But this is just what I feel deep down. And blogger is where I pend down my thoughts since it's hard for others to actually feel the pinch

when I really speak up to them. Goodnight.

Everything just seems so wrong today. I have no idea what

on earth is going on today. Every little things just have to irritate the hell out of me.

And it just feels so different when you have to put my with some one's ego, again

after not being hooked up/ tide down for quite some time.

Parts and parcel of life. Life's is all about how you handle it and how the mindset works.

Be optimist and everything is gonna turn out fine, hopefully. Life is unfair.

I hate it when I have to give in everytime to everyone. And I hate monkeys.

So please dearest girl, be the best monkey cause I seriously hate you.

It was NadyaB idea.
Beloved Aunty.
My BFF.

These are the schools that we'll be competing with next week. Most probably it will be held at CCAB, as usual. So, wish the Guangyang girls good luck alright. Hopefully, we'll make it to the 2nd round this time. Looks like we gonna use the same pink jersey again. How's school? As per normal. I just love my class, 5N1. I love the spirit and the same usual cliques. But for sure, I miss the ones who didn't make it through with us. Mdm Haniza talked to me about my Malay grade. She really wants me to retake it for the 3rd time badly. She said that I'm a potential Distinction scorer, and why must I waste it when I can make use of this language to go to Poly? Well, I've reconsidered about what she said. And I've talked to mum about it. Seems like I gonna take it again, this year. Let's hope this time I'll be able to get over and done with it.

4 more months. Intensive coaching !

A merciless person like you should just be hang to death.

I have no idea why are you being so immoral.

A hypocrite person who thinks highly of himself.

Whereas on the other hand, he have no idea that his actions now

is really insulting himself. Not others. It's damn hideous.

Bye.

this is when I don't homework, and copy Eunice's
Recess mad-ness.
Nyehahahahahah, pictures are so lame man. Really. Look at how selekeh I am in school. Rambot kusut masai. OMG. Never mind, there's no hot guys in Guangyang also. So, it's okay. I was damn tired the whole day today. I dragged myself to school. Due to yesterday training, everything just seems so weak for me. And there's training tomorrow. Omg. Arghhhhh. Damn shitty, I swear. Now, I'm on the phone with Shah. I miss him gitu kan. After so long, he called again. Since we both have been busy with our own stuffs, so we're doing a lil catching up now. Shall head to bed soon. I have not touch any of my homework. AS USUALLLL. hahahahahahah. Goodnight.

Just got back from training. Oh my god. SitiB, EuniceB and me are selected for the main 12 again this year South Zone. I've been planning not to play this year since we've been playing competative games/tournaments for the past 4 years. But we really pity Coach. So we have no choice but to just agreed on it. This is the last year, endure. My plans of not attending training anymore is all ruined. It seems like I have to attend it regularly from now onwards. Tournaments are next week. I hope my ankle will be nice with me this time. Hopefully. I've received my Food & Nutrition coursework. Early isn't it? Actually not really. The topic looks easy but you'll see me scratching my head, crying and even screaming when I have to sit in front of the laptop in school and finish up the coursework. Damn shitty. The worst part, our class is combined with the 4 express. And I swear I can't tolerate them. Rude, Childish, Attitude problem, Lazy and everything. Irritating bunch of idiotic morons. Enough of school. I might be heading to KL during Chinese New year. Hopefully it's gonna be confirm soon. Oh, I wanna take up BioMedical Science course in Poly. But then, the cut off points is 11 !?!?! Arghh, Nights.

Omg, gos knows how much I miss the gathering we used to have. The gym session and all.

Let me do a proper update here alright. So apparently, I went shopping with NadyaB yesterday. Before that, we met AyinB and EkahB. Sat and talked. Oh well, it's the usual ladies stuff. Went our seperate ways and that's where the shopping starts. I was totally shag yesterday. I was dragging myself home. I swear I'll go broke if i were to shop with NadyaB again. She the worst shopper I've ever met. DO NOT SHOP WITH HER. Cause she'll make you spend your money. But still, I had a great time yesterday. Besides the tragic news, I was fine the whole day.

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Today, I dragged my feet to school as I was all drained out last night. Had a tiff with chemistry teacher. She scolded me and Eunice when we were actually whispering, ONLY. This is how the conversation goes. Read carefully. This teacher is a big time bitch. All time, I swear.

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How annoying can she get, right? Full time sucker. Silap hari, aku kena hantar pergi jumpa DM. Just wait and see. I will just have to quarrel with her, from Sec 3 till now. Idiotic. Went for lunch with the girls. (Siti, Tey, Eunice & Nadya). It was Nadya and my treat to them. So, yeah. giggled and stuffs. Headed down to EuniceB crib after that. Like nothing better, we bitch. Oh, and I got myself g-strings. LOL. Sounds obscene. But, I do not care. It's super sexy. But too bad. It's just for me to see. Cuttttttttttte sangat-sangat. It's Saturday tomorrow. I have plans of course. My blog is really dry. I need pictures soon.

ADELINE OSMAN, we miss you so much.

ILYILYILYILYILYILYILYILY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ :D

ayin scolded me. :(