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I wanna delete this blog. But I don't feel like it. Full of memories. :)

A Promise In The Dark.

Prove nothing, nothing at all when things fell apart.

2 years ago. =.=

I'll do a proper update today, since I'm free.

I skipped training like again. I have no idea why I'm being such a bitch. My mood is not switching to anything else except rotting at home. All I wanted is to go home and sleep. And yes. I was being ditched alone while the girls enjoyed themselves with the soccer boys. That's the reason why I left without even letting them know. 3 periods of Food & Nutrition is a total disaster. Coursework is a killer. I used to love F&N. But hey, not anymore. I, literally dragged myself to F&N lessons every 2 times a week. I got no idea what's happening in English lesson today. I slept throughout the lesson for 2 periods. Don't ask me why. Eunice was asleep too. Ya, I know that language is important. In fact, very important. But oh my. You'll murder yourself if you have an idea of what is the teacher teaching, seriously.

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Quin Weng showed me the gift he made for Alycia. And he told me what he planned to do. Honestly, I was really moved and touched. I shall say Alycia is one lucky girl. Really lucky. She owned someone who pampered and shower her with love. Someone who never fail to show, how much he really love her. So sweet. Every one knows that Quin Weng is such a sweetheart when it comes to "Love" Haha, right?

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I bumped into Khai yesterday. I didn't get a chance to talk to him but he did text me later at night. Well, it's been long since I last talk to him. Did a little catch up yesterday and we're done. There's Chinese new year celebration in school tomorrow. But it will be a bit different this year. Will talk about it tomorrow. Nadya have been telling me this. " I don't want history to repeat itself. I really feel that it's gonna repeat again. They are all bastards. " Oh c'mmon my dear girl. We all know how much he mean to you. He used to be your past, your love and your everything. Certain guys might be a pain in the ass. But there are still a hand full that is willing to always be yours. What happened to me is not gonna happen to you cause I believe different guys/boys/mens have different ways of cheating you. Be it he's a man or a guy or even a boy. They are all the same sweety. You just have to be strong and stand on your two feet's.

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You can tell your lies. I don't really care about what you really feel deep down inside. One day you'll realise that you had a good girl in your life. I shall stop here. This post is getting more and more draggy. I promised that there will be pictures for tomorrow's post. I shall take a nap now. Really tired.

My blog is dry. I'm lacking of pictures. I'm just plain lazy to upload. School was awesome. I'm blessed with a lovely class. Headed down to Eunice's crib after lunch. Had a great laugh with her watching all the videos. Cute guys, doing stupid things. Nadya arrived few hours later. Did our usual stuffs and off for dinner. I did bonding session with Nadya today. After so long. I bet she understands what I feel. I got no choice but to let it out to someone. She was shocked upon hearing what happened. Oh well. I got no say. Guys now days, are just pieces of trash. You don't gain anything by doing this neither do I. So after all I guess, friends are every thing. They are always there for you to brighten up your life. And hey, I'm perfectly fine. I'm not ego but it's just the fact. People like this don't deserve the best from me. Siti's birthday in 3 days time. I got nothing in mind, yet. And, I'm taken on Valentine's Day. Start wondering who alright, baby girls. Nyehahahahhahahahahahahahahaha. :P AdelineB, text me your number ! Thank you, ily.

I'm a nasty bitch.

You never wanna play games with me.

Cause I can play it better than you do. I gonna leave things hanging.

Trust me, Try me baby.

Welcome to the family, Nurul Abby Fardyanna Binte Muhd Ridzwan.

She's my gorgeous and healthy niece. Look at how fat and round is she. She's only 4 days old. My 2nd brother is really blessed, with this baby girl of his. You have no idea how deep are her dimples. Damn adorable. Arghh, I just feel like squashing her in my arms. Haha. Will be paying her a visit this Sunday. I can't wait. Mum is slowly showing positive signs. I'm really glad. In fact, everyone is glad to see that.

We know you too well, mum. (:

How many times I gave my heart to how many times everything fall apart.

If only you have an idea how much I want this to work out.

Out of sudden, I start to think of you. I miss your heartbeat in me.

How I wish I could turn back time, let you breathe and be in my arms for

the rest of your life. If only I were given the chance to keep you.

You'll always be a part of me.

Selfish. Egoist. Irrational. Heartless.

It's all in you. I'm just the girl next door whom you take for granted.

I'll be meeting the usual girls today. It's been long. We shall get bitchy today.

Errrr, I can't be bother anymore. You can be this way, for as long as you want.

By all means, my pleasure. ((((: Bye .

I found this ugly photo of us. Now you have an idea of how horrible we look like. Oh my god, I look damn hideous. My oh my. I'm sick and tired of the same old routine. What is wrong with humans now days? They will tend to push you away when you're trying so hard to put yourself in their shoes. This is the reason why I used to choose my own way of life instead of prioritising others feelings ahead of me. Being selfish is totally not a need. I gonna put everything aside and get over with my O's. I don't wanna be affected by all these little issues. I guess, leaving Singapore will be a very good idea as that's where A Whole New Chapter Begins.

Let's start of with school. It's awesome today. We girls dragged Quin Weng to the girls toilet before afternoon assembly today. He was begging us to let him go as he need to pee badly. It was kinda hilarious. I just can't stop laughing. Thanks lovelies for making me smile. Eunice come up with a stupid plan after our recess today. This is how our conversation goes.